nobody care...

today i notice sumting.... tat nobody carez my feeling my tired my sickness.... everyone only tink fer demself.... day by day i tink why do i nid to work harder den everyone else... im soo tired.... i juz nid sumone hu be there fer me wen i get home wen im sick.... im juz tired being alone....... hmmm idk y my mindset is like tis but tis is wad i tink rtye now... im weak im not strong but if i nid to stand up fer myself den i force myself to do it....
putting a fake smile in front of ppl

must move on

today i change my profile pic at fb... tyme to change the photo... i love u granny cant bare to remove the photo but i haf to.... i still love u.. my u rest in peace....al fatehah....

OFF DAY TODAY

luk at my photo hahaha me wearing red lipstick....my o my.... ntg better to do... heheheh
bored sia today bby werking me at home eat sleep eat sleep but still not enuf rest.... face alot of pimple sia arghh stupid werkplace very dusty.... hmmm...
now watching tv n texting love hehehehe..
i wanna be wit u all nite long cn??? hehehe muz wait uhhh haiya... hmmm
tatz about it...

im not perfect

ape ape aku uat tetap aku jgk yg disalakn ape agk nk aku uat... aku da tk terdaye... tiap2 ari aku balek dari keje dapo selerak dgn pinggan yg belom cuci... aku basuh... disebabkn satu ari aku tk cuci kene mara bsk nye dn hari yg seterusnye... sumpah aku da tk tahu mcm maner nk uat mak aku sendiri puas... mmg senang nk uat mak org laen senang ati tapi mak sendiri sampai skg aku tk reti... ape agk!!
to other ppl u r the best in their eyes.., but not everiting is the wae they see...
i eat i remember about u... i buy u food celebrate ur bdae but u dun appreciate... one ting i sae rudely to u or u r nt happi wit me.. u kip banging or draging tings... now i know y im soo scared of thunder n ligthing.., its the wae u bang n drag makes me shock... jantung aku saket everitime mama uat gitu... hmmm

WHAT U WANT ME TO DO SO U ARE SATISFY WITH ME?

y ppl kip on treating me like shit!!!!

mitting wif Love

hey bby.... i love u sooo much... i know i didnt tell u how much i love u face to face but i show u alot of love....im wrong fer making you a punching bag hmmmm....but i love u tooo much...i dun wan u to make a reason fer me to hate u...we fite alot curse at each other shout to one another... but tat make our love stronger den others.... im the fire and u r my water i thank u fer being patience wit me....i know i shudnt react to u tat wae juz now...but wad u sae as a joke makes me feel im worthless....i try so hard to show u the love but u dun wan to see... sorry fer making a scene....i dunno how to react wen we fite tatz why i alwayZ hurt maself...i wanted to take tons of pictures but i dunno how and u duno how too...IZZUL listen here....i love u soooo much i cant bare to see u go away from me..if we are suppose to be together we cn overcome any obstacle tat comes in our wae... i sooo in love wit u dear....

mama bdae todae 19 oct

mama bdae todae so i n boifey tot we make her a surprise so we waited till 12 den we get to know mama alr sleep but i still wanna surprise her. i ask bf to lite up the candle hehehe den i wake mama up.... she was shock n paisey uhh hahahaha....she blow the candle den wake up eat the kek for awhile hehehe it was soooo DELICIOUS hahahaha until my bro wanted more hahaha.....

back to this blog again....

alot of story to be told here...laz i drop by here was in 2010...
now is 2011....derez fite here n there....famili n werk life.....
ive meet this crazy fun gerl and i love her sooo much...shez like a sister to me......
we go thru thick and thin together...her name is aesya...lol.... shez alot older than mie but i feel soo me wen i tok to her everydae......hahha....well she going off soon frm this company...im gonna mish her soo much... i noe i cud mit her at tymes but not olwaes we get to mit...like how we werk together we cud mit everydae rtye......shez getting married next year..i hope i cud be there to see her..but its stock take tyme...hahaha... see how yea.....
den my ex bff...shez now engage 1 oct...
granny is sick now...fall n hurt herself badly...all the famili members fighting over her things....
ive been gg to the hosp until i fall sick but ppl juz dun appreciate wad i do.... of coz saving their ass first mah....bcoz of 1 thing i didnt do i end being the bad one in this famili....
bro doesnt even bother abt mie.... cuzzi sum is bz wif their life the older ones (im ok wif it)but some is abt the same age as me doesnt gif a damn abt me.....later wen dey are in trouble den dey cum to mie...kimakkkkk mepek uhh ......
(i got nowhere to turn to so in this wae sum of my problem is relieve)
At werkk.waaaaa...got new exec, manager whom cant do aniting.... always ask fer help but dey do ntg in return.. dey take away our freedom....make us more tired den before...i want to apply for exec uhh wanna feel how they do sooo damn easy task..... hahaha.....earn alot but do little things....their fault we KENA blame ...WTH.....cant eat in storerom.....k fine....cannot wear slipper...k fine...cannot change clothes in the fitting room even when there is no customer...WTH
staff fighting over incentive.....sup kips on nagging so damn irritating.....
why cant we juz focus on teamwork n helping one another......
make the place more enjoyable.....and pls lh the music can u update it to the latest song.... u are making the place sooo damn old wit the old song....the items already like vintage (old) the most u cud do is make the environment feel more happening......
RTYE???
i juz nid a break from all this....
changing my number soon.....
decorate back my room...
changing myself.......
and i wan to get married soon so i cud start a famili.....i dun wan my famili to be like this......
i wan my famili to be close and cud count on one another....
i love you izzul......
thanks fer gg thru thick n thin together....
i know im at fault fer making you a punching bag in my life......
im gonna make up to u one dae ok love


thanks fer making me feel lighter of burden now...
ive share enuf.....

as i sae laz week i go out wif boifey.....cudnt fetch hym on tat dae coz mama is alone at hm..break her puasa alone so i decided to accompany mama first den at ntye go out wif boifey....we watch movies..!!! scary movie...but end up nt so scared..hahhaha.....i hug hym relli tite tot it was damn scary..lol after movies we wen bck hm take bus 963....
haix end up fite..again....get to tok things out thru sms....
the next dae we wen out again....he fetch mie after werk....we suppose to mit ma cuzzi n her bf...end up me n boifey go ourself...we search fer boifey aju melayu!! he saw 1 tat he relli lyke but it cost abt 200...hahaha...EXPENSIVE...but he wanted it so much....see hw ekh...hmmmm...
den we mit IS n GF.. go mkn.....we eat western...lamb chop n chicken chop....it was ok uhh......
abt 8 plus gg to 9 cuzzi decided to mit us afterall...but shes alone...
walk2...ard 11 we wen bck hm....
i rch bp ard 12 plus...we took 966...mie n boifey spend tyme till abt 4 am....
we tok abt famili abt us all....
i mish those daez wen we used to tok alot.....
bby wadeva happens u haf mie to support u thru out our r'ship....
we will go thru together...k syg
mwah...!!! i love you so much....
thatz all folks...
oya i dunno how tis tyme hari raya....
nid to werk....
pfft......